Another week closer to my 'o's!!! Still not really studying. But at least i will study a bit when i go back to school tonight just because i don't feel like staying at home? Anyway i finally found the Timbaland song featuring She Wants Revenge. Think the song's super nice. It's called 'time', something which i think i need now to study-.- LOL.
Slacked yesterday anyway. Was playing freestyle with Darren, Robert and Aetiiqcaz until like 3am on Sunday morning? Then i had a real disturbing dream and woke up at 8.30am-.- Slacked in front of the TV and ended up watching Spongebob Squarepants with my sister when she woke up and decided to skip church because the sky was like super threatening. Had my brunch and rotted in my room until 1pm. Waited for Aetiiqcaz to be done with his business before meeting him at Tampines interchange to study. Studied a little at the McDonald's there until 5.30pm. Come to think of it, maybe we should have studied at Starbucks instead-.- Well, anyway, Yun Heng helicopter-ed us, giving Aetii the strong urge to go play soccer. Thought that since Jia Jin would most likely be playing too, we cabbed down to Marine Parade-.-
Reached at 6? Then we realised that he wasn't playing there-.- So we spent the whole hour walking around the area between Tao Nan and Ngee Ann Primary. Still couldn't find them after that-.- Got so damn tired i 'collapsed' on some random bench. Then we ended up playing pool at Parkway. Think i won him if we played by the rules since he hit the 9-ball in before whacking the rest in? But anyway he claims that we drew 5-5. Went home and ended up watching Constantine again-.-
Here's my proof that i'm a good pool player-.-
Yeah i know, you chalk the stick and not your hands-.-
3:46 PM
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Yeah, it was Akon's song that 'inspired' me to write this post. But i really just want to say out every single problem that's in my mind now. So i just want to say sorry to everybody for all the things that i have done or have not done. In fact, i would like to specially apologise to these people. To Victoria, i'm sorry if i wasn't there to show enough care for you. I'm sorry if i didn't seem to love you enough sometimes. I really hope that we can still be friends. To Yuhan, i'm sorry that i went a little overboard rushing you to return me my money last week. It was because i really needed the money, while my mother was screaming at me everyday for lending other people money due to what my father did in the past, where he lent almost a million to his 'good friend' who then disappeared with the money. I'm sorry that i got so desperate that i accepted wei xian's offer to ask terry for the cash instead. And i'm seriously sorry if you think i didn't have any right to ask him. I'm not expecting you to read this, but i just want to write out what really happened at the very least. To Yanting, i know this is like one year later, but i still have to apologise if i really did hurt your feelings. To my brother and my family, i'm sorry to say this, but i really do smoke, although i dare say that i'm not addicted to it. I also want to apologise if i do seem a little irritating at times when i just insist on looking for you just so that i can gain something, whether it's something material or just a piece of information. To all my friends whom i dearly appreciate and care for, i'm sorry if i seem a little annoying and irresponsible at times. I'm also sorry if my words are a little hurting at times, it's only because i just want to let you know what's going through my mind. I'm sorry if i have disappointed you in any way that i have not noticed or bothered. It's okay if nobody reads this post out, but if you do, i seriously hope that you'll accept my apology because it really means a whole lot to me. But if you do not wish to forgive me, i can understand because i'm not really as nice a person as i want myself to be. In fact, i realise now that i'm nowhere near the person i want myself to be, but actually becoming the opposite of who i want myself to be.
